At the start of our spiritual life we try to tidy up the gross ,  great mistakes and put everything in order , but afterwards we have to endeavour to bridle our  desires , thoughts as well.

In the past if something untoward happened , I was angry and I revealed my anger to others as well . Nowadays if something bad happens I think :”Hallelujah! Here is a good challenge to show how much is my faith, hope worth . Lets see how could this be solved the Christian way !” 

For a while I just kept repeating this like this, but within me, in  my heart tension, fury , anger were raging . Nowadays I notice very often  that within me there is peace and curiosity : “ Well my Heavenly Father how could You solve this problem through me ?! “ 

Father Csaba 

translated by dr k.e.