In my fourth year in theology after the Christmas holy mass I stayed back in the chapel . I saw God’s infinite love totally emptied in His incarnation came among us as a child as I was looking at my Creator’s face . God is infinitely good and loves us, , but in front of the tiny crib I felt incredibly small, insignificant , a mud-stained sinner. It hurt me because I felt that I could not respond adequately, to this infinite love , with love. Jesus from the small manger stretched His arms towards me and only said one thing : “ Your sadness proves that you love me , since if you would not love me , it would not hurt you, that you cannot love me enough. Then you would have been tucked away in your own soft bed already .” I understood , that my abundant tears were talking without words , that despite all my sins I love God….. There and then to God’s infinite ‘yes” I said my own “yes “ humbly despite my own being ,as a handful of dust.
Father Csaba
translated by dr k.e.
In my fourth year in theology after the Christmas holy mass I stayed back in the chapel . I saw God’s infinite love totally emptied in His incarnation came among us as a child as I was looking at my Creator’s face . God is infinitely good and loves us, , but in front of the tiny crib I felt incredibly small, insignificant , a mud-stained sinner. It hurt me because I felt that I could not respond adequately, to this infinite love , with love. Jesus from the small manger stretched His arms towards me and only said one thing : “ Your sadness proves that you love me , since if you would not love me , it would not hurt you, that you cannot love me enough. Then you would have been tucked away in your own soft bed already .” I understood , that my abundant tears were talking without words , that despite all my sins I love God….. There and then to God’s infinite ‘yes” I said my own “yes “ humbly despite my own being ,as a handful of dust.